as i was sitting on the sofa.. outside overlooks a small swimming pool that no one swims in.. just then.. a little bird gently sat on the first step of the pool and started drinking from the pool... 

God spoke clearly.. Even the birds do not need to worry about what they eat or drink because I take care of them.. what's more you, My daughter.. Do you trust me enough to let me take care of your life?

Matthew 6:25-27

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

it has been a great turbulent of emotional rides.. i wonder when will this stop... when?.... can i still trust God to take care of me through this?....