Monday, August 18, 2008
God's healing process: day3
first lesson: finding courage
a long overdue reflection that i needed to do for the godly women conference.. i was doing it today... and there is one question that really made me stop and think about it.. How can i fully embrace my singleness and find courage to live a resolute life..
what made me stop and think is 'find courage'... the question could have been 'how can i fully embrace my singleness and live a resolute life'.. but it had that.. 'find courage'...
then i realised.. yea.. i don't have that courage to live single for God.. the world brings about many things that im afraid of.. and more than often, i often hoped for that someone to be there for me... and because i relied on this... i forgot i have that someone to be there for me.. that Someone is God Himself... yet more than often, the first person we think about, when we are in trouble is not Him.. or even.. the first person we have a good news to share about.. it is not Him too... whyy?... isn't God our first love.. isn't He the one that will share our happiness and problems.. why don't we look to Him.. i often am ashamed of myself because of this.. whenever i am experiencing something.. is it God that i look to first?.. most of the time.. no, untill it is really bad.. that is not good at all...
and if we look to God first.. more than willing.. i believe God will give us that courage to overcome it.. i have personally experienced it before.. the courage is amazing.. the courage is comforting.. it is not underlined with pride.. that 'hey, i think i can do this by myself' but that courage is rather 'hey! i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! this is no problem for God.. i will just do it according to what He ask me to do.. the courage will be more than sufficient..'
that courage is something i need to go through this...
that courage is something i need to forgive myself..
that courage is something i need to forgive the people around me..
and i believe God will strengthen me!
second lesson: time to stop and look up
my parents were talking about the shades that they bought for their living room.. and through the days that i was there, i forgot to see the shades.. keep forgetting to remember to see the shades.. then today.. as i was sitting on the couch.. talking to eunice.. was feeling pretty down..
then i suddenly look up.. i finally saw the shades...
then God opened my eyes to another truth..
people would tell us so much on how God would help us.. how God would be there for us..
but God cant help until we ask for it.. God would send help the moment we call for help.. we just need to be humble and call.. and look up to Him.. He is just there.. we just need to look up.. if we are humble enough to look up and ask Him for help.. i believe He would come.. it is how amazing God brings comfort.. even by looking at the shades, i would comforted... (:
third lesson: remember to truly forgive
this is probably one of the toughest lesson He has taught me so far... learning how to forgive.. how to forgive myself... how to forgive others.. why forgiveness is so important.. because if we do not forgive others.. God wouldnt forgive us either.. so if we want forgiveness... forgive others.. God's forgiveness would flow from heaven.. (:
how to forgive myself?... i guess.. this is pride.. the pride that i think i am greater than God.. God is all prepared to forgive me.. why not myself?... yea... another eye-opening great reminder...
this day wasnt as fruitful... cuz i was busy with other things.. then i realised.. doing devotion in the morning (: is just beautiful.. spending time with God in the morning first.. before other things.. (:
putting God in the equation of life.. bring out more life.. (:
all praise and glory to Christ our Lord! (:
violetjoy signing off~
3:25 PM
