Saturday, August 16, 2008
the pain has just started
today mark the beginning of a new yet familiar pain and hurt that i went through before... i thought i would never have to go through it again... but looks like i have to walk through it one more time.. this time, i dunno how long i would take this time.. i dunno if i can get through it.. but one thing im sure... i cant take it now... i simply cant... the same thing happened to me before.. i know how it feels.. it really sux.. why does it have to happen to me again...
finding it out today made all the more worst... but necessary.. it just made my dream came true.. i cried in my dream... i cried today... what else?... what is next?... more of these?...
im sick of it.. im sick of having to walk through the same path cuz i know how much it hurts... i took 3 years to recover from the first one.. how long would i take for this one?...
feeling betrayed and a whole sea of other feelings right now.. why am i the last to know?... why cant i know?...
why now?...
why?...
God... give me an answer... i really want to know what's going on....
violetjoy signing off~
12:29 AM
