everything that i once hold on to, has been taken away...

everything that i once believed have been shaken.. 

would i still end this year well?... 

in front of me, i see a path, not easy to walk.. then i see God by my side, asking,  urging me to walk this with Him.. He didn't promise me a smooth journey, but He promise me that He will be there for me no matter what.. should i take that step? i didn't see many people taking this path, but those that did, were happy.. though they had cuts and scars on their faces and body, but they still continue to walked, however they do not walk alone.. they walk with God.. 

then again, i could walk that wide path that everyone else is walking.. that looked easier to walk.. so many other people walked this path.. i wonder where it will lead me to.. people looked pretty happy walking that, but within their faces, i could see something missing in them.. i wonder what?.. 

then God said.. 'before you walk, let me carry your bag for you, so you do not have to worry about them.. carry my bag, I'm sure you can manage it'.. in my bag, are my studies, hopes, dreams, hurts and tears... what is in God's bag?... i wonder.. 

now I'm stuck here.. on one hand, I'm willing to go with the Lord.. on the other, I'm really tired of walking.. would i take His hand and walk this difficult path set before me?... would i have the strength to?.. 

i once sang a song.. forgot the exact lyrics, but it said, whenever You will lead me, i will follow.. can i sing that once again?... will i be able to submit everything to Him again?... 

this morning, i sang, 

You are my strength when I am weak

You are the treasure that I seek

You are my all in all

what is the meaning of all in all?..

is God really my all in all?

have i made God everything that i need?

hurt can destroy a man.. 

love can brings life..

lies can ruin trust..

truth can set one free..

am i set free today?.....