Thursday, November 20, 2008
no amount of right words could explain how i feel right now..
falling back to that time where all my feelings were squeezed into one bottle..
i feel like exploding..
like a balloon that has been filled with air..
one last blow of air, and it will explode..
im on the verge of it..
who can save me but God..
head knowledge of God's truth cant save me as well..
i need to apply it..
how?...
faith?
i'm tired of running this race..
i'm tired to walking this path..
i'm tired of doing everything that i'm doing..
be it in school, church or at home..
last 6 academic weeks of school before i graduate...
can i last that long...
last 5 weeks before this year end..
can i have a chance to start anew with God?
worldly desires have once again overwhelm me..
the desire to being with someone..
the desire of not staying single..
how long can i last.. 'not very long' God says..
but He doesnt stop there, He continue 'But you can last long if you trust and depend on me'
hmm.. trust and depend..
what does it mean to trust and depend..
trust..
when i look up trust, the definition that was given to me was;
have confidence or faith in;
believe: be confident about something;
faith: complete confidence in a person or plan etc;
to have confidence in a person..
do i have my confidence in God?
what does it mean to have confidence in God...
in every situation, who do we look to first..
God? or the situation itself..
when we look at the situation, we magnify the situation instead of God..
when we look at God, we magnify God instead of the situation..
what is it to depend on God
count: have faith or confidence in;
i guess ultimately God is trying to enforce and remind me again and again to have faith in Him to be confident in Him..
it is in times like these that i realize i have made God too small..
Be Magnified
Verse 1I have made You too small in my eyes
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have believed in a lie
That You were unable to help me.
But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong
And in my eyes and with my song
Oh Lord, be magnified
Chorus:
Be magnified, Oh Lord
You are highly exalted
And there is nothing You can't do
Oh Lord, my eyes are on You
Be magnified,
Oh Lord, be magnified
Verse 2
I have leaned on the wisdom of men
Oh Lord, forgive me
And I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and Your mercy
But now, Oh Lord, I see my wrong
Heal my heart and show yourself strong
And in my eyes and with my song
Oh Lord be magnified
A song that i have always loved.. because it always speaks so much..
You Alone
You are the peace that guards my heart
My help in time of need
You are the hope that leads me on
And brings me to my knees.
For there I found You waiting
And there I found release
So with all of my heart I worship
And unto You I sing
For You alone deserves all glory
For You alone deserves all praise
Father, we worship and adore You
Father, we long to seek Your face.
For You alone deserves all glory
For You alone deserves all praise
Father we love You
And we worship You this day.
violetjoy signing off~
7:58 AM
