Saturday, June 27, 2009
I haven't really told anyone about what I have been through.. except for one person.. I don't know how and where to start.. my side of the story.. might sound crap.. but it is what I have been through.. As much as I might have been wrong some where, I can't just discredit all that I am feeling right now..
I don't share it with others YET. cuz I don't want to say anything wrong.. or against the leadership.. or say anything to stumble anyone.. I tried to 'fix' it myself.. I failed.. terribly failed..
I dare not say that I am all right in this situation.. but hey.. that was what happened and that was how I felt.. probably unjustified to a certain extent, but what the hey right..
my side of the story is a whole jumbled mess.. is a mess that I can't take it myself.. can't..
this whole story is over.. just forget it.. if need be, I'll just take everything and just move on...
i'll take it as a training.. training for me to learn to be more humble.. more submissive.. more enduring.. more patient..
violetjoy signing off~
4:11 PM